I Know Nothing.

Quick Sand

These clocks don’t tic like they did before
Hourless glass
Sand covering the brittle floor
Stuck in time, just like you thought I would
Watching the watch on my wrist
Doing everything you thought i could
Floating in time, because i have nothing to hold me down
Maybe i could keep my feet planted
If you were still around
I know loving me is tough
You claim that you will love me soon enough
But soon is not enough
I just love you so much

- Claude Page

What She Said To Me

Pain is the only thing you left me with,
So I’m forced to love the hurt.
You were my first, so of course you’re the only one I miss.
Where were you when I needed you?
Huh?
We’re both in this world full of lies, but I always told you the truth.
You’re just the same old song.
I could keep playing you,
But you’d just continue doing me wrong.
Mountains made from mole hills.
Trying to look for a way,
But we’re out of wills.
I’m trying to fix the clock,
But you’re telling me we’re out of time.
Stuck in between a rock and a hard place,
You’re crushing me, the very entity,
Dwells on the bane of your existence
Or should I say dwelt - Past tense.
See, I’m over you.
Every time my friends said something bad, I stood up for you,
But everything they said about you seemed to be true.
How could I be so blind?
Was I blinded by love or was I just blind because it was my first time?
How could my eyelids betray my sight as to let me get
shot by cupids bow and lay my eyes upon something so worthless?
A hypocrite, who shakes his head at bad relationships,
Then turns around and does the same shit.
You’re not shit…
And I’m worth so much more.

- Claude Page

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I’ll breathe you in.

I miss how we used to talk everyday,
We don’t talk as much as we use too.
Now we only talk the nights away.
“It’s all my fault”, No I’m not trying to blame it all on you,
But I’m feeling stuck.
I’m not even sure what I should do.
You say this guy was in the same place as me.
I feel like a replacement, I’m sure you will deny it,
But i know this feeling all too well, who should I be?
I can’t be this guy from the chills of Massachusetts,
I’m just another kid from the chills of Toronto.
I don’t know if I’m the more or less.
I’m trying hard to not use a specific reference
But you’ll probably know that it’s about you & him
After the first sentence.
Let me quit while I’m ahead because I always manage to ruin shit.
I will always be in love with you,
I hope you know I’m meaning it.

- Claude Page

P.S

I know you love me.

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That’s Life

I used to dream every night, now I don’t dream at all.
Kids used to bug me
Because I was Black, Hispanic, poor and small.
The only Black Jew at Jewish school, that’s not what I want.
5:30, waking up to a house filled with family,
Two cousins, a grandma, a mom and an aunt.
I would always wonder why we had such bad luck,
Just another low class family living in the ‘hood’.
Nobody gives a fuck.
My parents worked nights, while putting on an expressionless face.
Dad was working at a small restaurant.
7 dollars an hour saved up so we could afford a place.
Mom worked so I could go to Jewish school, but I hated it there.
They all made fun of my clothes
and always tried to touch my hair.
I had a hard life growing up, public housing was no joke.
Rats, roaches and smoke alarms,
that couldn’t even detect the smoke.
I remember when they turned the power off at night,
Sometimes I’d watch the meter,
So I wouldn’t have to go another day without light.
But that’s life.

- Claude Page

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Tired

I’ve put my heart and soul into this page,
Tired of breaking led,
Feelings pouring out, I’m full of rage.
Broken then listed as depreciated,
Under sold.
Tired of being unappreciated,
Tired of coming up with less than half.
Funny things happen,
Too tired to even laugh,
Tired of taking a chance.
Broken hearts,
Quickly ended romance.
People can only love you so much until you’re hated.
I’ve been waiting so long,
I forgot why I even waited.
I lost all of my patience.
Tired of explaining,
So instead I fill their ears with silence.
They’re tired of peace, I’m tired of all the violence.
I’m tired of weighing myself against the stress,
I’m tired of searching for that perfect balance
of life.

- Claude Page

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Heavy

I’m growing up so fast, I thought I would never get older?
I feel like Atlas,
Carrying the weight of the whole world on my shoulders.
Writing my name on all of the walls, someone will remember my existence.
I’ll probably end up being remembered for nothing at all.
This world needs to change, The leaders of tomorrow could use the assistance.
I don’t expect to change the whole world on my own, I’m just one man.
I just want to be somebody that
Inspired some one who can.
Parents on the other hand telling me to have more responsibility & less fun,
But whens it’s said and done,
More is always said than done.
I’m not cocky or conceited, I’m just proud of me,
So why is everyone looking at me
as if I’m not allowed to be?
So called friends acting as if I changed, because I’m not as sincere.
Maybe it was because they didn’t know me when I was a nobody.
It’s funny how people change over a year.
I’m not smug, I’m just proud of me
Never judge a book by the cover.
I’m much more than what you want to see.

- Claude Page 

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Deep

Triangle love loop I’ve always been apart of it.
I can always remember the end,
But always have to be reminded about the start of it.
Maybe I couldn’t remember, because I never seen it.
You remember when you said you didn’t need me.
You only say it when you mean it.
Clouded judgement, foggy weather, pouring rain.
Why is it that after the tears dry up,
I’m the one always left with pain.
The pain of the truth, fill my ears with cries.
Was I reincarnated every time,
Just so I can die?
No it can’t be that,
There is more to life.
They ask me how would I know that,
I just answer “I’ve been on this earth more than twice”.
Pity this soul, you never thought twice to break.
One “I love you”,
Is all it takes.
Being all alone, is one of my biggest fears.
Just tell me you feel the same,
That’s all I’ve been dying to hear.
Pretend, pretend you love me.
I got more money than time to spend.
Because I live for a while,
Just so I can die again.

- Claude Page

Where Am I Going?

“Where am I going?”
That’s the question that’s always lingering inside of me,
Nowhere left to call home,
Home is just a bed to me.
I can’t sleep,
Feels like I’m sleeping on rocks.
I just lay back counting Sheep.
I wake up to reality,
I can tell she loves me,
I feel her feelings watching me.
I fix my gaze upon her face,
She’s staring back at me with the saddest expression,
Expressing her loneliness.
I was lost in her eyes, until she blinked.
She wrote me a letter, saying she doesn’t read my feelings anymore,
She has gotten tired of skimming over words written in ink.
My poems don’t seem to reach her anymore,
I hope our hearts are still in sync.
Last thing she told me was “We can never be”,
“What would my best friend think of me?”
I didn’t think nothing of it.
Sorry.

- Claude Page

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